My Gains:
1. Was going to meet my father after quite some time.
A lot of expectations and judgements came up – “here he will go again with his ranting and raving” and so on.
Released deeply in the hour before meeting him, and at a certain point, saw my ego as a whole coming up and showing itself.
Decided to drop the ego to the trash, be myself, love and respect the other person – and the result was the best interaction I ever had with my father.
What was particularly nice, is that since I let go of the pictures and saw him as part of myself, it actually felt like a conversation with my Self.
It was as if one of the masters took his form and came to sit and talk with me – just as a result of allowing it in and being open to my highest self instead of an ego.
2. Got out of an acceptance trap, which was a huge gain of discrimination for me – I’ve spend about half a day in acceptance, and it seemed like there is nothing to release and all I need to do is just rest.
When getting in contact with my partner, I noticed that although nothing seemed to come up, I felt lighter and happier while working with him.
Then I realized that the releasing was so spontaneous and effortless, that it actually seemed like there’s nothing to release – but it was exactly the right time to release and go deeper.
I noticed how the ego likes to latch on to concepts like beingness, freedom, realization and so on, which gets in the way of direct and honest experiencing – and this is great, because my decision to never stop until there’s absolute direct knowing is even stronger.
3. Had a missed phone call in the morning. Before returning the call, released until being hootless, which is something I always do since it alters the content of the calls in a positive way.
Got informed of unexpected additional $2,000 I’m supposed to have, which was a nice day beginning.
Thanks,
Omer
