“Thank you for your love in how much you are giving in this course.
I have had a gain of $4,000 over the past couple of months.
I find I am feeling less pulled into the story of others as I remain open to love as much as possible.
I feel more and more quiet and then a storm of mind appears, which I catch because it is so extreme between one and the other.
Last week there were things I was wanting to happen. Because I was wanting, I found myself in a spin and low energy. I realized I was, in a minor way, still looking to the outside for fulfillment. Having done so much releasing, the minor feels major. Fortunately the minor is released with ease, when I remember that I am the boss.
If I try and force something to happen, I immediately go into a spin and feel depressed. It is though I must remember I AM and allow. Claiming myself as the Boss takes me into CAP and immediately I am larger than any program. Releasing along last week as you worked with someone killing the ego and blowing up the planet put me in touch with a huge repressed power that I have been frightened of. I realized that releasing all wanting is a death to my past and a death to the ego. As I choose imperturbability, those other items will preferably turn up.”
Love,
Eileen
