“Background to a “Life Program”:
A few years ago when I was working on releasing a health problem, I uncovered a “Life Program.” When I was very young (about 4 or 5), my mom and sister were jealous of me and hated me. Every time I was joyful, they treated me horribly until I felt bad and then they’d be nice to me. They were only nice and loving to me when I was sad or felt bad. Because I was so young and they were my universe at the time, this translated into the universe hated me and wouldn’t allow me to be happy. And so the universe set about making sure I could never be happy. Almost everytime I started to be happy and/or successful, a disaster would befall me: a sledding accident, multiple car accidents (almost always the other person’s fault), suddenly got seriously ill and ended up in the hospital, my house burned down in a bizarre billion-to-one circumstance, sprained ankles, my car got stolen, etc. Luckily I had some great friends who helped me through many of these disasters and they got a lot of chuckles out of some of them.
I signed up for the Financial Freedom Couse with the intention of having financial independence. I mentally started the course a couple weeks before it actually began. I diligently released generically by not bringing up any particular issue but by asking myself if I could let go of wanting control which would automatically bring up clutching anxiety feelings. I alternated that with letting go of that lacking control feeling and wanting approval and that lacking approval feeling. After about the second week of the course, I woke up one night in the wee hours and remembered I’d forgotten to feed the wild birds. I went outside to the cherry tree where the bird feeder was. It was a clear frozen night but it didn’t feel cold. I looked up at the stars and the moon and saw Jupiter and another planet which I guessed was Mars. I thought how pretty it all was and the sensation was the universe loved me and wanted to help me. It wasn’t an Earth shattering revelation or even a feeling or thought, but just a knowing sensation.
This was a huge gain for me.
And a nice side effect is it proves what Lester said that If you let go of the wants, you’re letting go of everything. I rarely attempted to release this program because it was so creepy, but releasing generically got unexpected results.
Note: That trick of saying, “I unconditionally give you permission to leave” was especially helpful to me. I notice sometimes a bigger chunk of resistance/clutching feeling leaves when I say that.”
Love,
Mari DeClements
